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I'm a Mess(age)


I'm A Mess(age)

From a glance at my life from afar one might come to the conclusion that I "have myself together" to some extent but I'm here to let you know that I don't "have myself together" to any extent whatsoever! I am a total & absolute mess. Despite growing up in an overall stable/healthy foundation I somehow managed to mindfuck myself to the point of the need for my own personal intervention. I have a great dad who is a wonderful example of what type of treatment I should expect from a man yet I still fall/and once upon a time even settled for less. I know that this life is short and the only shot  I get and I'm still learning not to allow fear to bully me into procrastinating on my dreams. The fortunate thing is I've been made aware of my imperfections early in life which in some sorta twisted way encouraged me to embrace the beauty of being flawed in general. And things became full circle later in my adult years once I realized that I'm never going to be done learning & growing in life for as long as I'm alive even if that's 100+ years. See, God's not finished with me yet and I don't want him to be. I want God to work on me every single day/moment of my life. And I find peace in knowing that he's doing so, knowing that I'm not always going to "get it right". Knowing that there are many rivers to cross. Knowing that me doing my best and giving this life all that I have to offer at the moment is all that's required. Knowing that I can be "a mess" because within my mess is a message and that's in life there's going to be good, bad and there's going to be ugly and it's all apart of this magical/mystical blessing we call life.

"The glow that the sun leaves right around sunset helps me to realize that this is just a journey drop your worries, you are going to turn out fine."
                          -Andy Grammer

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