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I'm a Mess(age)

I'm A Mess(age) From a glance at my life from afar one might come to the conclusion that I "have myself together" to some extent but I'm here to let you know that I don't "have myself together" to any extent whatsoever! I am a total & absolute mess. Despite growing up in an overall stable/healthy foundation I somehow managed to mindfuck myself to the point of the need for my own personal intervention. I have a great dad who is a wonderful example of what type of treatment I should expect from a man yet I still fall/and once upon a time even settled for less. I know that this life is short and the only shot  I get and I'm still learning not to allow fear to bully me into procrastinating on my dreams. The fortunate thing is I've been made aware of my imperfections early in life which in some sorta twisted way encouraged me to embrace the beauty of being flawed in general. And things became full circle later in my adult years once I rea...

When It Hurts-It Hurts

When It Hurts-It Hurts What do you do when you’re hurting, I mean really, really hurting?  Fr om my experience there is no antidote, just time. As time goes on (which it most certainly will), the pain fades. That’s all fine & dandy but what about in the meantime while you’re in the midst/state of hurting? How exactly does one cope? Well, wisdom has whispered to my soul that hurting is healing and apart of life. Les Brown has taught me  that “its life”. That people will lie, hurt and treat me unfairly and that it’s my responsibility to keep pushing through the pain. The “hippies” told me to surrender to all of life’s happenings (the good, the bad & the ugly) and to simply “let it be”. The faithful/spiritualists suggests that I pray/meditate and to lean on God because he is the ultimate healer. But life itself has told me to let it hurt, to feel the pain and grow stronger from it.  To learn from my hurt and essentially let it hurt because quite frank...

Simple Truths

Simple Truths Cliches are so cliche right? Or sometimes even redundant.....that is up until my perception of them has been recently changed. That they're not just "cliches" but rather Simple Truths . The very  simple truths   that sustains us in the face of adversity yet we too often tend to forget and need to be reminded of. So, here it is, today I boldly dare to be "cliche" & remind you to:  "be kind to yourself", "take it a day at a time, better yet a thought/moment at a time", "exhale", "do the right thing", "treat others the way you would want to be treated", "look on the bright side", "this too shall pass", "where there's a will there's a way", "you are enough", "you are worthy", "beauty comes from within", "time heals all", "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger", "never give up", "...

Note To Self- Trust The Mofo Process (TTMP)

Trust The Process Growing up, I've always heard folks amongst me say faith & fear/worry can't occupy the same space as well as worry or fear is the opposite of faith and that if you trust & have faith in God then there's no need to be worried. Now, while I agree that faith should diminish fear I've also learned that the true opposition to faith is in fact SIGHT.  I've gotten this lesson first hand through experimenting with "fortune telling". I found that even after "reading the signs"& coming to ones own interpretation or even receiving great news of things to come that I still couldn't find the peace of mind that my soul yearned to get me through the here & now and all the ups and downs it brings. After a series of lessons....& readings Allah revealed to me through a message delivered by Pastor Phil Munsey titled "Are We There Yet". See, Faith is much deeper than believing & knowing of the magn...

The Silver Lining

The Silver Lining I created this blog with the hopes and intentions that those who are in the process of healing/self-liberation can visit and gain peace within that process. Peace in knowing that they are in fact healing and these are what I believe to be the symptoms so that they know they're not "losing it" but rather "gaining it". What's to be gained in healing is peace & liberation, but what's to be gained in the process of healing is growth & evolution which can both be eternal. See, healing is a long process is an understatement. Some pain requires a lifetime of the healing process. But realize that process = growth & evolution. See you could still be wrapped in your pain thus haven't even yet begun the process of healing, still stagnant and living your life not evolving past that particular state of being. That's the Silver Lining ! And there will always be a Silver Lining , because a cloud simply can't exist withou...

I'm Learning

I'm Learning They say the one thing constant in life is change and I don’t think anyone could argue with that even if we wanted to. Changes are ever constant whether it is physical, mental, financial, etc. Changes can be for the good or bad, for the better or worse but despite its context I’m learning that every change is an opportunity. An opportunity to learn something new & therefore grow. The funny/tricky part is when you’re learning you’re not always learning something new per se. Sometimes you’re re-learning things you’ve forgotten. Sometimes you’re simply learning that you still are and will forever more be learning. And that’s what I’m learning. I’m also learning that it’s ok to be learning; in fact you’re much better off learning than not learning. I’m learning that learning is a choice and it’s not always easy (to accept). I’m learning that the only thing holding me back from my greatness is myself but I’m also learning that it doesn’t have to be that way. ...
Note To Self We all love to acknowledge and affirm the star power that resides within us, well at least I know I do! From a young age, I have adopted the habit of convincing myself that no matter what or how others may perceive me Allah has created me to be a star & shine. What I failed to realize is that when God gave us the stars that not only shine at night but in actuality is providing our home, planet earth with light & ultimately life there was total darkness and if he ever decided to take them away then that's where we will find ourselves residing in that intense darkness. Recently it just hit me that with the intentions of the highest power/force ALL stars must travel the darker road so that it may be the light. Can you imagine just how much darker the nights would be without stars or how cold & dark the days would be without the brightest star of them all, the sun. I now travel this journey of life bearing in mind that in order to shine at my utmost po...